My dad asks me to buy turkey tml,which brings me back to last year.
It was raining like hell then.
Me and Jason at AMK Fairprice.
Saw Fandi Ahmad and one of his gorgeous lil boy.
Took a cab home before he rushed off to training.

Vividly recalled how I felt then when I saw him standing in the rain flagging for cab.
;)

Am I gonna go alone tml?
Feel like having his companion and not at the same time.Dunno why.Feel like doing things alone but would definitely be alot better if he is around.

I know he loves me...And I know he is very important to me now.
Well..we shall see tml how it goes.I would pray hard that there is no rain tml.But it didnt rain today so am kinda worried. >_
My eyes are still reddish..feels the itch and just a lil pain.Lucky it's not those swollen type.Heng heng.

Sigh.
I have been trying my best to pull myself up but there is this side of me who just wanna lay down and be absolute scalawag.
Scalawag? Scalawag=Good for nothing.

I wanna get away.Outta singapore for a short break and is contemplating about the Thailand trip.
Hopefully they haven't go yet,at least please ask me before you go.

I dun wanna spend another week or so after I end my work and bumps around and just feel crappy like this.
For all I know Jason wouldnt have all the time in the world for me,and I dun think I would wanna stick to him like Pooh to honey 24,7.
We are all humans beings and technically speaking single young adults,so we deserve our own space too.
Yng would be working.So would the others.
Feel like punching myself for giving up my job but again I know I wouldn't be thinking like this if I didn't.
It's not my dream job or it pays rocket high.It dont even take me to anywhere far.

If I am not travelling,I feel like doing something that I always wanna do.
Say being a volunteer for SPCA?
Yng and I have been thinking about this for the longest time but really do nothing about it.
But I am not sure if I wanna do this alone and really still dunno how to go about doing it.

This final month is a great chance for me to do something that I always wanna do but never did before another new year.

So maybe baby.
A getaway to Thailand?
Try to master up all the stupid cuisines and at least be some lady that can step in the kitchen for good?
A SPCA volunteer that maybe will leads me to a new discovery?I meant in career..you never know,right?
Hit the cheap gyms and sweat it out?
Pick a tuition assignment that would save my pocket for good?

Sigh...
I guess it is time for something to be done.
Hope I wakes up with a good note tml,and will feel waaayyy better than these few days.
Wanna get my hair chopped for more layers and makes it thinner but lazy to step in the salon.
Maybe next time.

Oh...one death to report.
One of my brother's tortise dies!!I dunno why and how,I thought it is perfectly fine this afternoon when I just drops a look.
Btw Jason..it is the active one.
Sigh...depressing!
Though I hardly plays with it,or merely touch it for less than an count of 5.But I want it to be healthy like Jason's.

Somehow those 2 tortises of mine(brother's) seem a lil sad and just...desolate.Now the active one is gone(with mystery),the shy and meek one seems more pitiful staying inside.